I'll be posted up right here, rain, sleet, hail, snow......

I be out here fighting demons and, it's like a curse that I can't shake
this part of .............. and lord, would you help me? and stop this pain I keep inflicting on my family.

In The Short-Run...

1.) Take a vacation.

2.) Pamper myself.

3.) Breathe.

4.) Visit a place I've never been before.

5.) Appreciate art and new music on two different occassions.

6.) Eat something different or exotic.

7.) Start my start-up.

8.) Volunteer my time to help someone else.

9.) Run more than a 5K Race.

10.) Lose 10 lbs.

"We could have had it all...." ~Rolling in The Deep, Adele

This song blows me away, its super powerful. Sums up all my emotions at once...especially since lately.

One Door Closes, Another One Opens...

Not sure why I've been feeling the way that I have. I guess the world works in its own way and somehow God has a purpose. Confused...its been more painful than anything for me. If you ever run into this, maybe you'd figure it out...that's just me I guess....silently express myself, not sure how to do it any other way.  I'm not the easiest person to understand, but thanks for trying anyway. This is as close it comes to how I feel, wish I had more time to spend with you...but this is how I picture it would be.

Crobar Chicago is Closing 04.17.10

Glam kills. Ive just read on my BB that Crobar Chicago is closing - 2 more weekends left. I loved and will always miss it for the dark warehouse it was when I began going there. You could do as you please with no expectations and best of all, no fashion show. Checked it out when it remodeled - got my first taste of how a Chicago corporation does it at the Red Eye's one year anniversary party. Finlandia vodka everywhere, massages in the club, and mummy like wall climbers. People that look like they should be in a club then those in the suits that are probably paying for it :) Lost my contact, took turns hurling on the way home with my friend Mark. Threw up a lot that night, but it was great! The last time I went after that was my 22nd bday - dizzy from the Patron. So farewell Crobar, I'll always love you for the warehouse you were. Thanks for the memories.

scared. indifferent. worried. knots. anxiety. depressed. happy. hopeful. unhappy. lonely. sad. lonely. scared. happy. alone. better. bored. annoyed. too much. out. in. crazy. weird. sad. ugly. anxious. hungry. angry. hopeful. distressed. distracted. focused. able. willing. strong. weak. sleepy. awake. depressed. missed. deprived. mad. happy. sad. scared. drained. unhappy. unsatisfied.

Untitled

"A single rose can be my garden... a single friend, my world."

-Leo Buscaglia



"If I Ain't Got You"

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby